Monday, August 29, 2005

I dont know if i'm just too hard on myself
or i actually deserve it...

I think i'm a coward
thats my conclusion after what happened today
and i'm a very useless sister..
i cant even take care of my own siblings
much less keep them in order...

sure ppl might say kids shall be kids
but if you knew the mischief they get themselves into....
today was the worse...
and when i should have come out and defend/scold them or something
i didnt want anything to do with it
i rather let them learn their mistakes on their own
even if it meant being scolded by a stranger in front of our own house...
hmm...
was i wrong to stay away?
heck it made me guilty as hell

and right after that i couldnt wait to get out of the house
cause mum wasnt at home u see
so i didnt want to be at home when she does
when all hell would break lose...
here i mean the nagging etc....
so i went out...
contemplated of not going home...
but then decided against it since i had stayed out on friday...
on the train ride home the thought of going home made me queasy...
sigh..

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anyways
went down to far east plaza in the evening to watch awi perform
of all the bands that played he was one of the best

you guys should go catch him and his band at timbre behind the substation where fat frog used to be...
every friday 10.30 pm onwards... perfect chill out place...

oh and yes the last band that performed was the worse
i thought the window panes of the surrounding stores were gonna shatter...
eeks
it was THAT bad... but gotta give them credit, at least they were brave enough to perform
even tho how bad they might be... all for a gd cause...

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somehow these past few days
i'm missing miss candy ho meixian

gerl how are you doin? Havent been seeing you ard lately
hope you're doing ok
take care of yourself okie!
and i cant wait for tuesday! ehehe
remember i'll always be here for you
for whatever and whenever okie dokie
*hugs*

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hmm was reading the news and
our beloved MM Lee is advising the malay community
and this time about cutting down the number of teen marriages.

and i so agree with him
if you notice, these teen who marries at an early has a higher chance of getting divorced early in their adult life...
Maybe its a thing that started way back
get married early, have babies thus increase the country's population etc
*shrugs* i dont know
but getting marriage at such an early age
i just dont get it
for some of these girls its like a goal in life
wtf
sigh...

oh and in other news...
lung cancer is striking more young female non-smokers here and worldwide
omg
to all smokers out there
get out of my face if you want to smoke!
dont worry i will not go into a lecture why smoking is bad for you
cause i'll be wasting my breath..
but
I do not want to nor i ever wanna be a number in a statistic chart
i have other problems to kill me at an early age as it is
bleah
so pls go somewhere where your smoke wont harm ppl...
pisses me off so much if someone actually smokes in my face
very considerate these ppl sheesh...
like i want a share of their second hand smoke...

hmm taufik batisah, the brand new and first smoke free ambassador... wonder if that'll do any good... hmm maybe to his legion of die hard female fans...
oh well...

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8/29/2005 12:50:00 AM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.