Wednesday, August 17, 2005

I wish i could sleep and never wake up
bleah
thats how i feel at the moment

but my dreams are making me even more tired
haiz

I think there's something very wrong with me
I'm like sick at least once a week
I feel exhausted like i've been running a never ending marathon
I dont look forward to morning classes anymore
I can only fall asleep after 1am, sometimes not at all

my mum has been subtly reminding me how i am a bad sister and a bad daughter
I dont know if its on purpose or otherwise
i'm not surprised if its on purpose
like i dont feel bad enough already....

I am at a point where loneliness doesnt bother me anymore cause i'm in no mood to socialize
I am starting hate crowds even more
I dont get why some people like to go on an on about an issue that is not even worth mentioning. bleah

I am almost 21 but i feel like i'm turning 51 (if i'll ever reach that age that is)
good god
i am messed up

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8/17/2005 08:45:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.