Saturday, September 10, 2005

i can easily blame my mood swings on PMS
but i refuse to
cause i believe one should be in control of one emotions
but i realise that i am failing badly
and sometimes i affect the people around me
and i'll feel so ultra ultra guilty for affecting them the way i do...

anyways i'm pass dwelling what i'm feeling right now...
cause its of no use...

I just hate it when i hear people admit defeat even before anything happens
I hate it when ppl expect failure even before they know anything
what the fuck is this
yes i am bloody pissed off
if everything is seen in a negative light where do you think things will go from here
what happened to believing in the best?
what happened to passion?
what happened to learning?
So at the hint of failure everything gets pushed away and thus give up????!?

and what if all this is triggered by people you respect
people who are suppose to believe in you
people who are suppose to guide you and help you learn?!??

i dont get it
i seriously dont need this right now
i have so many things in my head
and i dont even know why tears are running down my face

yes i'm sad
sad at how everything is turning out...

I hope September ends quickly
seeing how it only brings me pain and sadness...

||:PreCiouS:||
9/10/2005 07:19:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.