Friday, September 16, 2005

I just got back after being away from home and the computer for like four days
and i've come to realise that i tend to miss the computer very much haha...
but even so i've been getting more sleep then i ever did compared to when i'm actually at home with a computer nearby.. hmmm... says something doesnt it? haha...

i've been doing absolutely nothing
which is good i guess, before i really change gear for SIP
but then i realised something that sorta dampened my mood... well just for a few hours yesterday night before i got cheered up by melvo and dee dee...
for the few days i've been enjoying myself, i actually forgot all about my father's birthday...
yes i know he's no longer here and all but i kinda feel guilty for not actually remembering it and only realizing it the day after... (not to mention my sis has the same bdae as him)
i know i should move on with my life and not linger on painful memories and etc.. but sometimes its just hard...
how do you really get over something that is so painful and have been supressing it for too long?

I realise that alot has also been happening the few days i've been away
and here i am thinking why didnt it all happen when i am somewhere where i can actually do something? sheesh... and i was given last minute deadlines on the days i've been away... gee thanks...

And I think i'm getting too old for some things... hah and i'm only turning 21... bleah...
I seriously need to loosen up abit and not take things too seriously then it needs to be...
life is afterall short
and mine is even shorter =P
hmmmmz....

i think i shall end of here and proceed to watching tv and wait for survivor to start =P

Please stop thinking that you know me when you actually dont
Stop telling people about me when all you do is just assume...

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9/16/2005 11:31:00 AM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.