Monday, October 24, 2005

Monday Morning Reflections

So here I am in the office typing this out as a draft on Microsoft Word before transferring it to my blog, hoping that I somehow look busy. LoL

Yes indeed as this post may suggest, I have nothing to do in the office, so here I am trying to kill time... again... LoL
In case you’re wondering I did ask for work and none were given... so yea... sigh...
And it doesn’t help that now my eyes feels tired and my brain is shutting down soon, and its only like 10.30am in the morning!

I’m trying to think of ways of making myself busy. I’ve read and browsed thru CNA, CNN, FOXnews, BBC… how many news updates can you get in one morning? *smilez*
I have even had time to read thru the Administration of Muslim Law Act in Singapore hehe…
If only I can open my novel and read perhaps all the free time I have at the moment may count for something, but I can’t possibly be reading a novel amidst all the busy secretaries surrounding me, that would be... err... unwise? LoL =P

This kinda reminds me of a thread that izhary posted on BB previously. If I’m not mistaken it went along the lines of “Is it harder to work or pretend that you’re working?”

I guess the answer really depends on the situation itself and where you are. For example for me to pretend working is somehow hard when you are sitting in the middle of a group of people and your every movement is noticeable. You get nervous and stressed thinking, "oh god what should I do now? Everyone is so busy and I’m doing nothing… I’m running out of ideas of things that can keep me occupied and make me look busy..."

And then there are those who are in a different firm than me and given tones of work to do and can hardly catch a breath to breathe and to add to that with a bitchy secretary watching their every move like a vulture waiting to strike. Now that is equally hard. Hmmz…

Anyways have you noticed the abundance of natural disasters happening around the world lately? First it was the tsunami disaster in Asia, followed by Hurricane Katrina, Earthquake in North Asia, Hurricane Rita, Now comes Hurricane Wilma... can you believe it? 7 hurricanes in 14 months to hit the States.
Not to mention the different epidemics that has been going around like Dengue and Bird Flu.

Are these some of the effects of global warming? Is Mother Nature trying to balance the number of homosapiens co-existing in this century? Is she trying to make us realize how we have taken some things for granted?
Some may have scientific answers, some philosophical one... but through all these adversity you see strength and courage, mistakes made that could be learnt from...

Then there are the Man-induced disasters/terror... whatever you may call it...
The terrorist attacks in Madrid, London and Bali. The recent riot in West Birmingham in the UK.
These senseless losses of innocent lives...

I just don’t get it.
History. A chronological record of events, as of the life or development of a people or institution, often including an explanation of or commentary on those events
The branch of knowledge that records and analyzes past events.

Man has been around thousands of years. Wars that went down throughout history, the brutality of man against each other, battery, torture, slavery, you name it I bet we’re read about it. Be it in history books, autobiographies or documentaries.
We shudder at thought of the experience of what some of these people have gone through.
History is taught, remembered and shared so that we could learn from past mistakes, but what have human kind learnt from these mistakes?

Leaders avoiding warnings of disaster because of their egos, hunger for power… as result? A disaster and an aftermath so huge that it could have been avoided in the first place…
Groups of people claiming to be fighting for a cause that leads to acts of violence and loss of innocent lives. Even lives of people who are part of what they are claiming to be fighting for.
War, an excuse that had been given to justify on doing something that was lead to believe to be doing something right which has an impact on hundreds and thousands of lives and continues to produce a ripple effect.

What are all these violence for?
So far the only outcome has been death, injuries, misery, distraught...
What are some of these people really fighting for?
I suppose when there is good, there is always evil. And sometimes people get confused between the two.

For some, now is an ongoing process of overcoming the odds. Finding courage when everything seems bleak. Finding the strength to move on when there is an overwhelming urge to give up. To find comfort when coldness just surrounds you.

For these people I pray for them.

Time check: 12:20

Just had a visit from vithya who was trying to kill time too LoLx
40 minutes to Lunch
Time please fly faster… hehe…

You know I begin to wonder how I’m gonna be assessed if I’m not given work to do
Not that I don’t take the initiative to ask, which I actually do… hmmzz….

Oh and yes
I think the standard of food home delivery has dropped tremendously
First I thought it was a one off occasion... until yesterday...

You see, yesterday my siblings and I decided to order in pizza for break fast since none of us felt like cooking, and when it came 15mins later then what was promised, first they delivered the wrong sized pizza. Instead of getting 2 Large, we got 2 Regular and then they also forgot our extra order of another bottle of Pepsi.
So well they apologized and all and promised to send us another two regular pizzas to make up for the wrong delivery and the one extra bottle of Pepsi we ordered... which came 1 hour later!
What in the world…
This is not a one off incident
They have forgotton one or two of order in previous occasions before...
Geez man…

Sigh… and mum has been sick for the past few days, and I’m worried. Argh and I think I’m not doing a very good job as an elder sister... Bleah... so what’s new huh?

which reminds me, i need to go and bring my lil sis and bro to buy some new outfits for raya since its coming soon.. like next wk!
and yes only for them, i'm contented with my recycled clothes and since we are on a tight budget as always =)

Aite till the next post
Salute!

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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.