Wednesday, November 23, 2005

I am such a fool to believe that today was going to be perfect
who wouldnt right?
finally of age
turning a day older
wishes all around

but i was wrong
i am such a bloody fool
i shouldnt have let my guard down
i shouldnt have expected
expected things to happen right during my birthday
cause it will only end up in tears
like how it always does every single year

I tried
But yet i keep failing
why?
Why is it so freaking hard to get my family together?
why is it so freaking hard just to be happy for me just for one day?
what's with the attitude mother?
what did i do wrong now?
what?
do you hate me so much that even on this day you had to ruin it for me?

everything seems to go all wrong today
i hate my birthday
nothing good comes out of it
it always end in tears
and i so wish i could cry it all out but only escaped tears seems to fall down my cheeks
i'm at my wits end

thank you to those who had wished me today
no more celebrations for me
happy occasions just has something against me....

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11/23/2005 11:24:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.