Monday, December 19, 2005

Its past two a.m in the morning and i cant believe i'm still up
sitting in the dark
using my sis's laptop
hungry as hell
my bad late night habit has returned
argh
and here i am trying to reduce the dark circles and eye bags around my eyes
LoLx

and now i dont even know why i'm blogging

oh yea btw

a late birthday shoutout to

KAY!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

*hugs*
all the best in your future endeavours and may you shine like the brightest star in the sky cause to me you're already a star in my eyes
may the year ahead bring you precious and wonderful memories to keep =)
khehehe

anyways the subject of race suddenly comes to mind
as some of you may know there are different types of malays
javanese, boyanese, bugis, etc...

In malay families, your race is determined by the race of your father.
i never really like to disclose my race cause sometimes i'm afraid of the reaction i will get.
Well more or less, this is due to the things i hear around me...

You see most old folks are the traditional kind
I had a friend who was in a relationship with a person who had the same race as me
everything went well for them, well until the part they decided to get married.
When my friend's grandmother found out about that her boyfriend's family's race she was totally against the marriage and went on and on about how bad people from this race is. She gave a condition that if my friend really wanted to marry the guy, the 'mas kahwin' or is it 'duit hantaran' i'm not really sure which one, has to be a certain amount, which is obviously quite high for a middle income family.
Well as you may have guessed, their relationship started to become sour soon after...
now they are no longer together...

anyhow, i find the whole thing stupid.
Why judge a person or his/her entire family because of race?
Even if the people in the race a loonnngg time ago were known to be 'bad' people, but hello arent we living in the modern world?
Its like paying for a wrong you never knew about and did not commit.
you know i actually did try to do some research about the race, its history, facts, anything that has to do with the race, but the only closest thing i could get is that the race originated from somewhere in indonesia.

In case you're wondering
I'm a Boyanese
do i hear gasps??
LoLx
anyways i reckon no old fogies would be reading this

Tho i still want to learn more about this race that is reflected on my IC
all this talk about what Boyanese people were like has certainly whet my interest....
researching and reading about history is always fascinating.

okie my eyes are getting itchy and tired
which are signs for me to stop whatever i'm doing
get into bed and get some sleep
if not just stare into the neverending darkness LoLx

bonne nuit!

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12/19/2005 02:14:00 AM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.