Saturday, December 17, 2005

Well the SIP report is over and done with
now we can move on beyond SIP
tho this is just the beginning of more deadlines to come
I look at my planner with horror at the amount of time we have left
time for whatever it may be
project deadlines, final exams, etc...

And i still have my Project Twinkle II which i coming soon!
whheee i can't wait!! =)

I can't believe we are in the process of Project Twinkle II!!
A year and a half ago it was just a dream
something that i want to do for kids who i was once like
under privilged kids who are away from whatever family they have left
Tho i wish i could be doing more if i have more resources to work with...
perhaps in the near future... you'll never know =)

Anyways Law Fraternity Games (LFG) going on tomorrow at Sentosa
definitely going to be there and perhaps participate in some of the games.
It has been a long time since i've been physically active and i guess some exercise will do me good. I've been getting alot of acute headaches this past few weeks tsk...

Something has been bugging me for quite some time now.
How do you change a prejudice that has somehow been etched to stone?
And its damn frustrating when you want to change this prejudiced thoughts and somehow you feel like you're the only one trying.
It also doesnt help when time is not on your side and you have other responsibilities to take care of as well.
How do you move forward when the group of people who are suppose to work together to make a difference doesnt seem to give damn?
How can i turn things around and make a difference and do what is expected out of me?

Sometimes i don't know if i can live up to the high expectations people seem to set on me.
I dont even know what they see in me that i cant see.
I'm not even half as good as some better people out there.
But then there are people who just makes use of me because i'm too bloody nice for my own good.
If i am as good as some people think i am then why am i not for example in the Directors' Honors List (DHL)? But then i'm not the kind of person who gives a damn about being in any list. Why add unnessary pressure to oneself? But point is i'm not the cleverest. I'm not the strongest neither am i talented. But then somehow there's this invisible sign above my head that says "Come to me only if you need help, if nothing else i'm just a person you pass by who does not have any feelings and can ignore and make fun of..."
wtf
well that's some ego boosting
*rolls eyes*

And i've come to a point where i dont give a damn anymore
i'll just stay true myself and continue to be nice to whoever it is
if making fun of me give you kicks
go ahead
but do it behind my back cause i do not want anything to do with it and i wouldnt want to get personal with you. Well bottomline is in my eyes you're just as bad as the devil himself.

But then who am i to criticize? I aint perfect either. I can be a cynical bitch if i want to.
heck i dont even know whats the point of my whole entry now.
bleah

I should get attached, be happy, get drunk with love and not care about the troubles in my life. Life is too short for me to worry about things that people dont seem to appreciate.

but then what is love?
lately i've seen couples fight, break-ups, dilemmas, etc
basically things that makes up the reason why i selfishly thank god that i'm not currently attached
cause well basically i'm a force to be reckon with when i'm in one of my mood swings or i feel bitchy and i say things without thinking.
yes i am god damn unpredictable and it would perhaps take a saint and the most patient man in the world to actually want to be with me. LoL

oh well
now i have no idea whats the point of this entry
gee whiz
anyways my lil bro is calling for me
so i'll be off now

oh and yes i owe some peeps photos
so i've posted em' below...
enjoy!

ciao =)

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Le canzoni non si scrivono
Ma nascono da se
Son le cose che succedono
Ogni giorno intorno a noi
Le canzoni basta coglierle
Ce n’e una anche per te
Che fai piu fatica a vivere
E non sorridi mai

Le canzoni sono zingare e rubano poesie
Sono inganni come pillole della felicità
Le canzoni non guariscono amori e malattie
Ma quel piccolo dolore che l’esistere ci dà

Passerà, passerà
Se un ragazzo e una chitarra sono li
Come te, in città
A guardare questa vita che non va
Che ci ammazza d’illusioni
E con l’età delle canzoni

Passerà su di noi
Finiremo tutti in banca prima o poi
Coi perchè, i chissà
E la angoscie di una ricca povertà
A parlare degli amori che non hai
A cantare una canzone che non sai come fa
Perchè l’hai perduta dentro
E ti ricordi solamente passerà

In un mondo di automobili
E di gran velocità
Per chi arriva sempre ultimo
E per chi si dice addio
Per chi sbatte negli ostacoli
Della diversità le canzoni sono lucciole
Che cantano nel buio

Passerà prima o poi
Questo piccolo dolore che c’e in te
Che c’e in me, che c’e in noi
E ci fa sentire come marinai
In balia del vento e della nostalgia
A cantare una canzone che non sai come fa
Ma quel piccolo dolore che sia odio, o che sia amore passerà

Passerà, passerà
Anche se farai soltanto
Passerà, passerà e a qualcosa una canzone servirà
Se il tuo piccolo dolore
Che sia odio, o che sia amore passerà

||:PreCiouS:||
12/17/2005 01:12:00 AM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.