Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Its 8.42am in the morning and while most of the island's population are either on a crowded bus/mrt on their way to work, stuck in some morning traffic jam, in school for their first period of the day, still in bed catching on more sleep or simply having some nice hot breakfast.... i on the other hand have yet to get any sleep since yesterday... sigh...

it doesnt help my current situation that i'm hungry, hot and bothered all at the same time AND my mind cant seem to stop churning.
If you're going to ask what in god's name can i be thinking so much about. well... to answer that question.. i dont have a clue.

Just when i thought since school is out and everything, i am free to do what i want to now, my sleepless nights are over... No more worrying about deadlines, exams, etc...
gawd i am so wrong...

sigh three years of law can do that to a person
i'm so used to not getting enough sleep that i'm only harming myself
believe me i know
remind me never to go into law pratice if i ever do get an opportunity to
i dont think my health can take it. lolx
maybe i should really move out or find somewhere else to sleep at night cause the funny thing is i can easily fall asleep anywhere else but at home.
Maybe its me unconciously making up for the loss time that i've been away from home. lolx.

speaking of which
i'm thinking of living abroad
well anytime before my time is up in this lifetime that is
perhaps in the uk or france or perhaps somewhere exotic and full of history and culture
cause i want to learn
i want to experience
try out new things
i want to discover things that i wont be able to do here

and perhaps test out my mum's theory that i can survive wherever i end up

well a cooler weather than Singapore's summer is a bonus as well

maybe i should just marry a foreigner
that will save alot of expenses
but then where's the challange in that?
i want to try these things independently
test and push myself

someday... =)

oh yea btw when you go overseas may it be malaysia or the UK for example, whenever you want to purchase something do you tend to convert the item you want to purchase to our local currency and decide if you want to purchase it or not?

for instance when i was in UK last year every item that i would consider buying i would take the price, i.e £20 and i would multiply it by 3 which means the item would be S$60. And i cant help doing that with whatever i want to buy even if it is £1. Same goes if i'm in Malaysia. I would always convert the riggit into singapore dollars and decide if its value for money.

My conclusion is that the currency one is brought up with determines one's concept of value.

Does it apply to you too?

Anyways on a totally different subject, I've been listening to alot of Lifehouse lately
and somehow the song 'Trying' stuck with me and i currently have it on loop in my ipod
i suppose it applys to some part of my life right now..

Could you let down your hair be transparent for awhile
Just a little while
to see if you're human after all

Honesty is a hard attribute to find
When we all want to seem like
we've got it all figured out

Well let me be the first to say that I
don't have a clue
I don't have all the answers
ain't gonna' pretend like I do

just trying - to find my way
trying - to find my way the best that I know how

Well I haven't memorized all of the cute things to say
but I'm working on it
Maybe I'll master this- art form someday

If I quote all the lines off the top of my head
Will you believe
that I fully understand all these things I've read

I'm just trying - to find my way
trying - to find my way
trying - to find my way the best that I know how

Well I- haven't got it all figured out quite yet but
even if it takes my whole life
to get to where I need to be

And if I should fall to the bottom of the end
I'll be one step back to you, and

trying - to find my way
trying - to find my way
Oh I'm trying - to find my way
trying - to find my way

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3/22/2006 08:43:00 AM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.