Sunday, April 30, 2006

However fun it sounds like to plan a trip,
it certainly a downer to know all your planning and research is coming out to nothing when people you are doing it for just are not as excited as you are and might not even go.
But that's life isn't it? you win some you lose some.

Was watching Third Watch this afternoon and there was this officer who decided she will keep her baby even if she had to raise her up all on her own. Just as she decided that, i knew she was going to lose the baby. Just a gut feeling i had. And true enough, lo and behold, she did lose her baby when she was shot in her line of duty.
I know its just televison and all that but something made me realise that how screwed up my thoughts are on this, life is just exactly like that.
You make a decision, you are convicted to it and then before you know it everything gets messed up and you see what you've work hard for or want so much being thrown in the wind.

unless of course you are one of the lucky beings that everything you want falls nicely on your lap even if you never put any effort into it.
some people are just lucky bastards.

oh well but what can you do when lady luck or fate has something against you?
You move on, hope for the best, adapt to changes that is thrown your way and make the best out of what you can because ultimately you are where you are for one reason or another and even if you don't see the reason why get yourself down when your life is how you make out of it =)

There is this saying from E.M. Forster that: -

"We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us."

Somehow life is kinda like love. For instance you fall hopelessly in love with someone, you think that you're going to spend the rest of your life with him/her and that person can do no wrong. And yes you do have your happy days, precious memories and then whambamthankyoumam' your relationship is in pieces. You're still reeling from the aftermath, you are in denial and thinking your perfect partner is just not themselves and it was some evil force possessing their minds.

You begin to think why some people have better luck in love than you... But when all the dust has settled what do you do then? Mop around your apartment, getting drunk and thinking of killing yourself cause life is nothing without that 'perfect' person? Wallow in self pity? What good would it do for you?

Just like life, you choose how you want to pick yourself up and make the best out of the situation.

I know i may sound ridiculous to some and I dont need you to agree with me but thats how i view it as. =)

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4/30/2006 05:58:00 PM
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

The end of April is near and the General Elections are here.
New blogskin just because i was getting bored with the one i had.
too lazy to do a new one from scratch and my back still doesnt allow me to sit for long periods of time in front of my bro's comp which is the only one with photoshop so the skin you see here is courtesy of blogskins.

For your reading pleasure i shall update you with the happenings of my life, which i have admit to you ladies and gents that it aint that much cause my life aint as exciting as a rock star. lolx.
My weekly routine is nowadays going to and from NUH all the way on the west side of the island, i live in the east by the way for those not in the know. Other than that my days consists of the bed, the tv, the computer, the internet, library books, food and anticipation on when i'm going to meet my friends next before i die of boredom at home.

I have yet to find a job because apart from the weekly physiotheraphy that i have to attend, i'm waiting to find out the final results from my doctor and if there is anything that can be done to relive the daily pain in my back so i can function as per normal and not having to worry of the kink in my back the whole day.

Since i have a lot of idle time in my hands, i have been thinking and i've come to a conclusion that i'm a coward. I know I know its not the kind of things people admit to. Coward in the sense that i tend to push people away when there's a possible hint that they would get close to me.

In simpler terms, i'm afraid of the possiblity of getting into a potential relationship where love is involved. I'm afraid of getting hurt. So why risk the possiblity of getting hurt when you can simply avoid that messy situation? yes simply put i'm a coward. I'm brave enough to face whatever that is thrown at me but i'm a coward when it comes to relationships. Which is why it aint surprising that i've remained single all this while.

The thing is, if a friend can hurt you like an a arrow through the heart and stomp on it like it is nothing, then wouldnt someone you are in a relationship with and eventually fall in love with can hurt you 10 times more?

Although having a relationship may have it perks, being single aint that bad. Only that the down side of it is that you get too independent for your own good that you tend to push people away without realising it.

Is this one area of my life i should work on?
I donno
but looking at my track record of losing the people i love and care about
why let myself get hurt over and over again?
it sometimes feel that it just aint worth it.

Anyways the General Elections are here
Its kind of exciting when you know what's going on
the perks of being a law student, you actually understand better what is going on.
There would most propbably be a contest in the GRC i live in.
If there is then it will be the first time i get to vote!
We'll see what happens on Thursday.

Meanwhile i'm planning a trip to go away for awhile before i change my gear and work towards where i want to go. I'm not really sure yet the exact path i'm going to take but i know i'll get to where i'm suppose to be in due time. This trip i'm planning for is just to get away from modern society for awhile, throw away baggage that i no longer need in my life, rediscover my passion, my goals, and start afresh.
It is of course a budget trip, nothing fancy, only what i can afford with no income. lolx.

aite its getting late and i have chores to see to tomorrow
salute!

oh yea btw before i forget
i know its 3 days late, better late than never...

Happy 22nd Birthday to Apri!
wow 22 somehow sounds old
i shouldn't comment so much since i'm turning the same age in 7 months time lolx.
anyways apri all the best in your future endeavours
best wishes and god bless =)

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4/26/2006 02:33:00 AM
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Saturday, April 08, 2006

sigh just when i thought frequent visits to the hospital days are over...

for the next few weeks say hello to:

-physiotheraphy (do you)
-CT scans (know how much)
-X-rays (all of this)
-injection to the joint in my spine (will cost???)
-increase in medical bills (*faints*)

yayness
my life cant get any better than this
now how am i suppose to get a permanent job? no employer would want me for taking leave every week. sigh..

at this moment i wish that i never had that surgery in the first place, and that my spine wasnt giving me problems to being with and that years later that stupid ball didnt hit my back and start a chain reaction. but what to do right? what's done is done.
no worries no worries
things happen for a reason
all i know is that i will get through this
even if i have to bear with the pain for the rest of my natural life
afterall what does not kill me makes me stronger
hehe... =)

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4/08/2006 01:03:00 AM
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Monday, April 03, 2006

A few months back a few friends of mine and including myself were discussing about the speculation that Chief Justice Yong Pung How, the longest serving CJ in the world, was going to retire when his term was up but when the time came never did to the dissapointment, we reckon, of some lawyers. Then a few months later after that fateful conversation, lo and behold, this weekend it was published in the newspapers that CJ Yong will be stepping down on April 10 and Attorney General Chan Sek Keong wil be taking over.

Not being disrespectful of the CJ, I swear i heard some silent cheering going around the legal community. i'm joking =P

Anyways CJ Yong is known to be very strict, shrewd and a no nonsense kind of person. What i distictly remember about the CJ is how he increased the jail sentence of a man who appealed on a conviction of assult from 6 years to 10 years.

Some quotable quotes from our dear CJ: -

'I am not here for sympathy's sake. I am here sometimes to be as unsympathetic and cruel as possible.' This was recently expressed in 2004 during the appeal of the two RSS Courageous officers convicted of negligence.

Other recent gems include "You are mad or almost mad. I am not in a position to help, I am very sorry. I have never heard so much nonsense" during the appeal by a conman.

"There are countries where you can go and suck away for all you are worth" but not here, during the appeal of a former policeman who had oral sex with an underaged but sexually active girl.

Other comments on sex crimes-related appeals are his decision to imprison a child kidnapper-molestor "Until he is 79 years old with a probably reduced libido".

In another 2002 case, when a man convicted for sex crimes remorsefully promised, "I assure Your Honour this will be my last offence," CJ Yong replied: "Well, I will help you. I will make sure you will not commit any more offences" by throwing him in prison for a fairly long time, "I will die in prison", in agreement CJ Yong replied, "I am sure you will. I can't do anything about it".

Yes our CJ can be amusing =)

As cold or amusing (take your pick) as he might sound, CJ Yong received the country's highest National Day Honour, Order of Temaek, for his outstanding contributions in reforming and strengthening the Singapore Justice System. Apart from that he had been instrumental in the dramatic transformation of the Subordinate Courts which have been rated world class and recommended by the World Bank as a model for modernisation for judiciaries of developing and developed countries.

Andd he is the one who introduced Information Technology (IT) to the courts' management process which i absolutely salute him for cause it is so convenient as compared to how it was done years ago and i actually love doing the E-filing thingy *grinz*

Well all i can say is that AG Chan has big shoes to fill and I wish him all the best.

oh and btw isnt it curious that singapore's former CJ, current CJ and upcoming CJ are all born in Malaysia?? Penang, KL and Ipoh respectively.
just a thought =)

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4/03/2006 03:47:00 AM
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