Sunday, April 30, 2006

However fun it sounds like to plan a trip,
it certainly a downer to know all your planning and research is coming out to nothing when people you are doing it for just are not as excited as you are and might not even go.
But that's life isn't it? you win some you lose some.

Was watching Third Watch this afternoon and there was this officer who decided she will keep her baby even if she had to raise her up all on her own. Just as she decided that, i knew she was going to lose the baby. Just a gut feeling i had. And true enough, lo and behold, she did lose her baby when she was shot in her line of duty.
I know its just televison and all that but something made me realise that how screwed up my thoughts are on this, life is just exactly like that.
You make a decision, you are convicted to it and then before you know it everything gets messed up and you see what you've work hard for or want so much being thrown in the wind.

unless of course you are one of the lucky beings that everything you want falls nicely on your lap even if you never put any effort into it.
some people are just lucky bastards.

oh well but what can you do when lady luck or fate has something against you?
You move on, hope for the best, adapt to changes that is thrown your way and make the best out of what you can because ultimately you are where you are for one reason or another and even if you don't see the reason why get yourself down when your life is how you make out of it =)

There is this saying from E.M. Forster that: -

"We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us."

Somehow life is kinda like love. For instance you fall hopelessly in love with someone, you think that you're going to spend the rest of your life with him/her and that person can do no wrong. And yes you do have your happy days, precious memories and then whambamthankyoumam' your relationship is in pieces. You're still reeling from the aftermath, you are in denial and thinking your perfect partner is just not themselves and it was some evil force possessing their minds.

You begin to think why some people have better luck in love than you... But when all the dust has settled what do you do then? Mop around your apartment, getting drunk and thinking of killing yourself cause life is nothing without that 'perfect' person? Wallow in self pity? What good would it do for you?

Just like life, you choose how you want to pick yourself up and make the best out of the situation.

I know i may sound ridiculous to some and I dont need you to agree with me but thats how i view it as. =)

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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.