Sunday, May 14, 2006

Ooh Weee..

this site has been viewed 20.000 times
wow.
people actually read/browse/visit this place
*twirls around*

anyhoo Mother's Day today
Happy Mother's Day to all Mothers around the world!!

I think mother's are one of the strongest and inspiring bunch of people around.
andd my blog background music, i believe the lyrics is appropriately a tribute to me mum...
tho i may not tell her so cause we dont communicate as much as we should.
She's so strong and has been sacrificing a lot for me and my siblings and we owe her so damn much but me being me, i have no idea where to even begin in repaying whatever she has done for us cause nothing i'll ever do will even make up for everything she has done.

Mum aint even home today. She's in JB with the two younger kids cause they have some sort of motivation course. Didnt buy mum any mother's day gift cause firstly i'm broke, secondly nothing i ever bought her ever showed that she likes it cause everytime i give her a present for whatever occasion it is (i.e birthday) she usually chucks it to one side... and thirdly nothing i buy is ever gonna show how much i love her.
So what i did was wash the dirty dishes in the sink which was piling up. Not much i know but at least its something cause i dont usually do the piled up dishes (only the ones i use) cause it strains my back when hunching for whatever time it takes to clear all the dishes with the sink counter being very low and it makes my hand itch. I know i know i'm giving pathethic excuses, so sue me.

Anyways i dont know if i'm being paranoid but sometimes i feel underappreciated or in another sense simply put, just being used. Maybe its my paranoia but then time and time again my intuition has always been on the dot so i dont know what to think. Then i realise why the fuck should i antaganoize myself with people who doesnt give a damn about me the way i do about them? Why bring myself down when i am the only one who can choose whether or not i want to be down for this sort of people and when i know i do have friends who are there for me no matter what. Makes me think of what Eleanor Roosevelt once said, "Remember, No on can make you feel inferior without your consent".

I wonder... why women can't seem to get along when they for example first meet and turn into absolute bitches when they think they have competition but it is so easy for men to bond and establish a brotherhood and help one another?

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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.