Saturday, July 08, 2006

I realise today that i'm the queen of all procrastinators. Lolx. If there was a society for one i'll think i can become the President.. hmm no scratch that the CEO perhaps lolx. Thing is when it comes to being a professional with work i like doing things fast, clear my table and not have things lying around in my intray. However when it comes to doing things for myself or what is somewhat still in existance of what is called my social life, i tend to procrastinate.

Let me see what are the things that i have to do which i have yet to do.. hmm... As of now it has been a couple of months since i had made up my mind to go to one of the seamstress in the neighbourhood 'market' to order myself some nice pair of tailor made pants. and i have yet to do that. It has been hmm... what like 3 days that i was suppose to have gone to the library to return and borrow books, shop for birthday presents and do some personal much needed shopping which i have been pushing and convincing myself that i could do the next day but when the next day comes the same thing would happen again, same thing also happens with 'my' room, at least my side of the room that i need to clean, oh and there's the bag that i brought to genting which i have yet to put back in strorage. Andd my laundry has been begging for a week to be washed.. oh wait its already in the washing machine.. at least that is being done.. hmmz... i could go on but then i dont want to brag. lolx

I know i know this bad habit has to stop but i cant seem to help it. But the best thing of it all i cant stand mess, dirt and running out of things. lolx.
I wonder if it would be better if i had my own place. would it actually make a difference? hmmz.. *ponders*

*ends pondering* *shrugs*

anyhoo Saturday today. Sure feels like Sunday. Woke up late, cooked spagetti for the folks at home, took a damn long shower, did my laundry, ate, watched tv and now currently killing time on the net.

Oh yea treated the family to Superman Returns a couple of days ago because i'm nice and the fact that the siblings were hounding me on whether we were going to watch it or not. lolx.. Doesnt matter that i have to watch it again but its alright. I dont mind watching Brandon Routh on the big screen again and anyways its not always i can afford to treat the family to a movie =)

Currently life aint going nowhere, the only thing that is a sure thing in my life is the twice a week trips to the firm to clear my intray of work and keep track of the files i'm handling. I wish those places i've sent my resumes to will answer me this coming week or else i'll start panicking. Oh yea and i just remembered that i have to come up with a speech for this year's law investiture due to the fact i'm the outgoing president. Who would have thought? Three years ago at the benches of TP's basketball court during law welcome i had decided to join law inc because i wanted to be part of it, what it stands for, its potential.. If ya told me at that moment that 3 years down the road i would be trying to come up with an outgoing presidential speech, i would have rolled my eyes and said 'rright'.. lolx. Still i wish i could have done more. I wished that the semester wasnt so screwed up and too darn short to do all the things we could have come up with. Ouh and i wished that the school wasnt so stringent with the damn funds and had allocated each diploma interest groups with a portion of the funds instead of giving it all to B S C for them to decide who gets it and have the student interest group go through all those official hoo haas.

I watched the National Geographic documentary on the 7/7 attack on London yesterday. My prayers goes out to all the victims and their loved ones. The attack is sort of a reminder that no matter how safe we think we are, we never really are. I'm utterly repulsed by the actions of these terrorist, claiming to be muslims and doing it for their people, their brothers and sisters. Now what bullshit are they talking about? Islam doesnt teach people to kill others. And i so cant believe that they think by doing what they did they would be rewarded and go to heaven. Omg what a load of crap. Ultimately what they did is called suicide and the aftermath of their actions i think hell would welcome them with open arms.

Which brings me to this another thing. Violence, war, religion prejudice and racism. Things the world can do without but sadly is happening all around us. Power, men crave for it, which is why wars happen. And dont give that lame reason that war is being waged so that peace can happen. That is a load of crap. Look at what happened to Iraq. Anyways let say you can obtain all the power you can in the world, then what? Use that to make use of people, rule the world, etc.. dont you get bored with it after let say a couple of decades down the road? Then when your time comes, you die.. unless of course with all that power you have immortality that comes along with it. But would you really be happy? To sell your soul for power.. hmm.. perhaps it does makes a person happy since it is a common occurance ever since the world came into existance.

Then there is the religion prejudices and racism. And dont tell me it doesnt happen in our country cause i've already had my fair share of being discriminated against. But who gives a damn to the minority right? Because ulitmately we are still the minority? rrigghtt.
Arent we all ultimately still human beings? Why the need to feel superior?
If you take five people of all different races and religions, and let say they happen to be in a burning house and let say they are all burnt beyond recognition. Tell me would they still look different or the same? When that same five people are in another senario and in that scenario they are on a surgeon's table having surgery, does their insides look different? What about blood? Does the blood that run thru my veins a different color from yours? Does the color of my skin makes you more superior? I think its even worse if you discriminate against your own race. (Tho i would have to agree the world can do without those poseurs mats and minahs littering the streets with their "i'm too cool for you" attitudes.) Anyways...

Does a terrorist who claims to be of a certain religion makes all the people in that religion bad? Do you believe a terrorist over a religion which has been around for centuries? Does one bad apple make the whole barrel bad? Why is it when a minority commits a crime the race/religion of that person is reported in the news and not when it is committed by a person of the majority religion/race?

Ouh and don't get me started with academic qualification discrimination. How JCs are better then polys and if you dont have a degree you are nothing etc...

So help me understand this first. The reason for war, racial & religion discrimination.

||:PreCiouS:||
7/08/2006 05:51:00 PM
||||

.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.