Sunday, July 23, 2006

RANDOM THOUGHTS

1 - Caught Singapore Idol for the first time this week, I seriously think Mediacorp Studios need to do something with their sound system. It was really bad especially when Daniel Ong was speaking to the contestants backstage. Ouh and they should maybe change either their stage manager or their whole stage crew cause you can see alot of cues being missed and awful camera angles.

2 - RatedE. Channel 5's latest english entertainment news show after a very long haitus. I like the idea but you can obviously see that the concept of the show is not original and as refereshing as they want to make us think, especially if their audience actually tune in to Channel E on cable. And i seriously have doubts on the chemistry between Shan Wee and Michelle Chong. Shan Wee is kinda green since this is his first time hosting but i believe he can improve with time and when he gets comfortable in front of the camera. But for Michelle Chong, well somehow i feel a vibe of fakeness as well as lameness. They should replace her altogether and get someone fresher.

3 - Law of Employment. When you are really in search for a job you'll get no interviews. But when you take your mind off it and live in the moment and not worry about it, a job offer will actually come along. Therefore i shall no longer worry of not getting a job and take each day a step at a time and do the things that i've been longing to do for a long time, like taking piano lessons again, really learn how to ice skate, strum a tune on the guitar... =)

4 - I was looking at the new law inc exco photo on mat's blog and i cant believe i'm saying this but i was overcome with jealousy. I see alot of potential in the new comm. i know i know i need to move on since i've graduated and everything but somehow law inc has been part of my life for 3 years and i miss it. I miss being part of a committee, orgainising events for students, interacting with students to know what they want, their feedback and stuff, i miss the experience, the journey, learning more about what i can do, my strengths and weaknesses. sigh.. i need to get a life and move on.

5 - I like the idea of falling for a guy who is misunderstood by many. Because then it wouldnt matter what other people will think of us so long as we understand each other and I will also get to laugh at all those women who had their chance to get to know him and passed because they thought they were being 'clever' and thus missed out on the great things he had to offer.

6 - Seriously thinking of going away for the weekend somewhere next month. Doesnt really matter where, Redang, Bangkok, KL, wherever.. for some R&R and perhaps some alone-reflection time, i can do with some company but with my besties being busy with school/work, we'll see how it goes.. but you know me i'm the 'spur-of-the-moment' kind of girl =)

7 -What do you do if you have feelings for someone that you know is just impossible? Feelings that you have been denying and laughing at yourself for how ridiculous it sounds. How do you know that it is even real to begin with? How do you know if it just something your mind does to occupy the idle time you have? hmmz...

8 - I just dont get guys who kills their girlfriend's self-confidence and in their defence says that it is for her own good. wtf.

9 - Went over to one of my closest friend's place today cause i was concerned about the phone call she gave me last weekend, hanging out with her today, just talking and listening to her made me realise how much i actually missed her company and how bad a friend i have been these past few years. I am going to be a better friend.

10 - I dont know why but as i was walking from my friend's home to tampines interchange i suddenly felt numb and decided to continue walking all the way home. I felt like i could continue walking forever and not stop. That has not happened for quite some time now and i wonder what has actually triggered this.

11 - The Veronicas' Heavily Broken has been playing continously in my head like a broken record and i dont know why. I seriously need it to stop cause i'm afraid i'll just break down and cry.

Everyday I sit here waiting
Everyday just seems so long
And now I've had enough of all the hating
Do we even care, it's so unfair
Any day it'll all be over
Any day there's nothing new
And I just try to find some hope
To try to hold onto
Then it starts again
It'll never end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

Almost giving up on trying
Almost heading for a fall
And now my mind is screaming out
I've gotta keep on fighting
But then it starts again
It'll never end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do
And there's nothing I can do

Feels like I'm drowning
I'm screaming for air
(Screaming for air)
Louder I'm crying
And you don't even care

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
(What can I do)
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken
theres nothing i can do

||:PreCiouS:||
7/23/2006 11:10:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.