Monday, August 14, 2006

How much of your life do you actually control?
And how much of your life is pre-planned and will happen no matter what?

The above somehow came to me on a bright and early Sunday morning, and i was having a splitting headache to boot.

Destiny, Karma, Fate and all that jazz. Life works in mysterious ways sometimes and i wont argue with it. Things happen for a reason right? Good or Bad. What i can definitely agree on is that all of us have a certain amount of control in our lives. The choices we make everyday affects how we live even we dont realise it.

Right-O i shall move on, wasnt my initial intention to get into debates on life and what-nots lolx.

Been pretty busy the past week. I know it was National Day week and all, that doesnt mean one cant be busy. lolx. Oh yea before i move on, belated birthday shout out to Miss Tan Yi Mei.
Apologies for the late wishes, the 'procrastinativeness' got the best of me i'm afraid. Better late then never right? heehee

Alrighty then, what have i been busy with? Well i've been busy with a certain project which i shall not name here cause i'm so afraid i'd jinx it. This opportunity given to me is like the opportunity of a lifetime and i really really want to succeed. The thing is the competition out there is so great and i'm just a novice that wants it as badly as the next person. sigh.

Job hunting has come to a standstill. Tho i am still working part time at the firm and the boss is fishing for me to go back full time or take up extra days to do some other files of his, I know i won't be happy if i just stayed put. Needless to say i still have yet to go for any job interviews, and i'm getting tired of browsing through job ads on the net. At this point i so cant wait to go back to school.

I know people who secretly hate/dispise me will be sooooo pleased to hear about the state i'm in, unemployed, etcetc. Who the hell bloody cares? Heck it aint end of the world yet and sorry to burst your bubble, i'm not the kind of person who gives up easily. A wise person once said, 'when there's a will, there's definitely a way'.
So puhlease wipe that smirk off your face and show it to someone who actually gives a damn thankyouverymuch.

hmm i'm now craving for some fresh bagels w/ cream cheese and B&J's cookie dough.
I'm beginning to think i eat too much. Must be my metabolism. hmmmz....

I actually have loads more to talk about, from the fireworks festival to Singapore Idol to some inconsiderate members of the public who really deserves a kick in their butts. Well the first two is starting to become old news as the new week begins, and the latter, well i can compile a list and post it up when i'm having a bad mood.

Three things i'm looking foward to this month:

1) Dinner gathering with all my ex-ITE mates!
2) Going back to the orphanage and see all the kids! i miss them!
3) Getting a certain email that will make me jump for joy. *fingers crossed*

And right now, all i want to do is rummage through the fridge and grab something to snack on. toodles!

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8/14/2006 12:42:00 AM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.