Monday, September 11, 2006

Can you believe it?
The weekend has come and gone.
I know most people should be fast asleep in their comfortable beds, but moi? I am up in the wee hours of the morning trying to feel sleepy and fall asleep. Somehow non of the home remedies i tried seem to be working on me. Warm milk, camomile tea, herbal sleeping aid pill... hmm i think its official. My body clock is totally screwed up. My mum keeps telling me that i'm living in the wrong time zone.

Maybe i am.

Lately i've been thinking of the possiblity of living and working overseas. Whether i have the courage to actually do that. I keep looking at 'foreign talents' with successful careers in Singapore and I cant help but wonder if i could be as successful as them if I actually decide to take a chance, pack my bags and fly off halfway around the world to settle down and make a living.

I want to know what if feels like to live somewhere else other than here. Although i dispise the hot humid weather here, i love the security that i feel here. The familiarity, the uniqueness of our country. Though i know i'm adaptable to change, throw me anywhere and i'll find a way to survive, but it still scares me. Change and the unknown.

Perhaps i'll take that chance when an opportunity presents itself, or after I get my degree, pay of my student loans, have some savings in the bank and buy that plane ticket.

Saturday's gathering was fun. Been quite some time since i last saw the guys. Conversation wise, the topic that went on for the night, NS talk, more NS talk and typical guy stuff. With vik around you know what guy stuff he likes to talk about *rolls eyes*

Went out with my sis on a mission yesterday afternoon.

The mission?

To get in and out of the John Little Sale in one piece

Lolx!

okie seriously, the main reason i was there with my sis was because she needed to get some stuff before she starts her SIP on Wednesday.
I'm beginning to appreciate SALEs even though i hate the crowds. Reason because, things are cheap! Unlike rich people who can walk into any store of their choice and buy things without looking at price tags, i am not even close to that category. In a year, i'll most probably buy clothes.. hmm let's see.. when i have money.. which is not much.. if i do.. hmm maybe... four times a year? or less.

Dont even talk about Hari Raya. I even recycle my baju kurung. My last year's baju kurung was something i found in a bag of clothes that someone donated to the orphanage when i was still living there. Even if i do get to buy a new one, it is those that you find at the bazaar for like.. wat $20? around that price lah. But it doesnt matter to me. Hari Raya is like once a year. I don't go house visiting much. Grandparents house, some relatives house and that's it. I don't like visiting people's house where i know our family is unwanted. Don't you just hate looking at fake people with their fake 'i feel sorry for you' faces.

So for me its kinda funny when people actually tell me that they've already ordered their baju kurungs or kebaya's from a seamstress and its already done and they just need to go for a fitting. lolx, and the fasting month is not even here yet lah. tsk.

I know that a whole bunch people look forward to this time of year. Get themselves drunk in the festivities, the excitement, the 'duit collection' for the kids, etcetc.. But for me? I donno. Its just another thing you get thru year after year. I actually dread having to go house to house. I actually do not look forward to people coming to the house. I'll be relieved when the month of festivities ends. And i just realised, this year, it ends a day after my birthday. hmmz...

Now how did i go from talking about a SALE to my feelings on Hari Raya?
ish

*shrugs*

well anyways i should continue with my attempts to fall asleep.
ta-ra

p.s - All the best to all year 3s reading this and starting their SIP on wednesday! Break a leg! =)

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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.