Celebrating one's birthday on the actual day is very passe don't you think? Spent mine slacking infront of my brother's TV flipping channels on cable. And the thing that i mentioned in my previous post that my bro was organising for me? It was held the day after, a bbq in conjuction of my birthday. I had an awesome time on Friday. For those who managed to come down and celebrate my birthday with me, a BIG THANK YOU =)
Photos will be uploaded as soon as i get my hands on my sis's camera.
hmm i just received a phone call from the HR dept of this company i applied a job to and they wanted a reference from either the place i interned at or the previous law firm i worked at. The idiotic former boss of mine who refused to quickly give me a letter of reference claiming that he has a lot of work to do and asking me to type it myself while he dictates it is seriously getting on my nerves. Anyways, because i cant give the letter of reference to the HR guy by the stipulated time, he called me to give him a phone number he could call to verify how a good worker i am. Now if i gave him the phone number of where i interned at, i'm sure the person wont remember me that much since it was a year ago and it is a bigg firm. And i was forced to give my former boss's number.. blearghh... I swear if that bigot screw my chances of landing this job i'm going to curse him till the end of his days.... &*(%$$&%#(&
phew now that's off my chest...
sigh.. i really really need this job, for my sake and my family's sake. Even if its a contractural job before i actually decide to further my studies.
I think I'm one of the very few wierdos that exist in the world who does her own birthday shoutouts and proceed to sing a birthday song in my head. yay me!
Anyways thanks dee for the early birthday wish at sometime past midnight and of course to the job search website which somehow is programmed to remember my birthday.
I am having a bad case of sore throat. I'm unable to swallow properly and my tounge hurts too. And i think my dentist who had offered her services when i was still in the orphanage is a load of crap. She doesnt do what a normal dentist would do when you go and visit a dentist. She doesnt check my teeth, her basic routine is to ask whats the problem, give some lame excuse on why its hurting, give some painkillers and then tell you to make another appointment if i decide to extract my tooth. And all this takes 5 minutes on the dentist chair, which does not include the 20 minutes wait just to see her and the 20 minutes to get to her office. I'm bloody sure she's prejudiced. Now why did i start talking about my dentist? hmm.. oh yea because my bloody tooth is stil hurting!!! bleah.
Life, sometimes you know where you're going and usually unexpected things will pop up, which is usually called obstacles. Then you'll lose sight at the path that was in front of you or the path comes to an end and you have to start a new one. Sometimes you find yourself on that path you lost sight off and sometimes you're not sure which way to go, so many directions to choose from, so many outcomes and there will come that time when you have to choose and you'll have fear in your heart because you are afraid that you might end up chooseing the wrong one and disappoint yourself.
Sometimes you tell yourself you gotta have faith in people no matter how many times they dissapoint you and its been proven that it will happen to you no matter what stage your life is right now. Time and time again i've always been proven wrong. There will always come a day when you'll be dissapointed. There will always come a day when you see yourself standing alone with no one at your side that has your back.
There are times when i ask myself, why do you even bother?
Perhaps i just want to have a positive outlook in life. That i actually mean something to at least someone, even thou sometimes i know i'm lying to myself.
Sometimes i hate myself for having this intuition I have on certain things. Being able to read into someone's voice on the phone, text words, actions/ reactions that i get.
I've been having a Veronica Mars marathon and sometimes i wish i had her life. Compared to mine, hers looks more exciting even tho how tough life throws punches at her. I wanna be that gerl who can throw that punch back. To not care what people think and knowing how bad life get, sometimes things will turn out ok. But then, it is however a television show.
The next stage of my two decades of living, the 2-2 is coming in two days. Somehow i dont have a good feeling about it and lets just say right about now i'm not looking forward to it.
I can be the girl who smiles all the time without a care in the world, but sometimes having to pretend that everything is ok everytime can get a bit tiring.
We're already in Mid November, before you know it, December will come and the year will be closing to an end and hello 2007!
Me Birthday is coming soon too, tho i hope this year it would be a much better time for me as compared to the previous ones. The brother is organizing something for me so i'm kinda looking forward to it.
Looking back at this year, with so much experiences gained, trials and tribulations faced and the various tests on the bonds of friendship, i've come to a conclusion that year 2006 has been a good year and its still not over yet! Which is why i'm very much looking forward to the brand new year. With current family issues hovering and me very much currently standing infront of a forked road and have yet to choose a path, 2007 will definitely be a whole new experience.
I've been spending alot of time at home lately. Perhaps to make up for time lost on my seven year absence at home and there's also the obvious reason that i dont want to spend any unnecessary money cause everytime i go out i'll tend to spend, especially on you name it, food. tsk. lolx. Well my dad used to say "rumah ku syurga ku" which means my home my heaven. =)
And recently i bought an early christmas present for the family. A brand new dvd player to replace the old cheapskate one that we won previously which had broken down and was unrepairable. And also due to the fact my mum has been bugging me to look for the goong/princess hours dvd with english subtitles cause she's tired of watching it on youtube and whatdoyouknow lo and behold and i've finally found one online and waiting for it to be delievered, and upon delivery i know my mum cant wait to watch it... so therefore before i know i'll spend my money on myself, might as well contribute something to the family.. oh and plus since i'm at home so much, say hello to dvd marathons! lolx
So have you heard? The GST will be raised to 7%? Might not be much to certain people, however 7% do sound kinda big if you actually once in awhile take a look at the receipt of your purchases and notice the GST amount that they charge you. Well the PM did say its to help the needy.. i'm not really sure how since i dont really know how they work out the country's budget and stuff so we'll have to see..
oh yea before i forget.. Birthday shoutouts to... Shaiful and Shakinna!! Advance Birthday shout out to... Sashi and Herwan!! and a very belated birthday shout out to... Nuraini and Rahmat!! Happy Birthday!!
Sometimes its those lil family moments that matters the most
Randomness
Britney Spears is divorcing K-Fed!! Like finally! Congrats Britney for coming to your senses. Thank god.
I think tis the season for break-ups and divorces. Its that time of year again!! With Britney's impending divorce, then there's Resse Witherspoon's too.. Then there's the people you know personally who are breaking up... hmmz...
Did you catch Amazing Race Asia? Omg Alan Wu talks like a speeding train. How was he selected to become the host in the first place? I think as compared to the original AR, ARA is not as captivating to watch. But then it is the first episode, so we'll have to see.
I hate to admit this but a certain Wentworth Miller is catching my attention. He seems to be appearing in most shows i'm watching lately. It doesnt hurt that he aint that bad looking either. And no i'm not at the goo-goo-gah-gah head over heels stage. Just sitting a bit straighter in my seat.
I'm still mulling over on whether i should get myself that Il Divo concert tix. I keep telling myself "girl its Il Divo! You've been waiting for months for them to come down!" sigh.. right.. it aint so easy to make a decision when you're not exactly rolling in big bucks.. Then theres the digi cam that i've always wanted to get for myself... blearghhhhhhh....
God if you're somehow reading this, i need a sign. A sign to where my life is going. I'm at a forked road and i'm not sure which path i should take. I'm not sure where my life is headed to. If dreams are predictions i sure hope to heaven that they do come true. I need to get out of this rut i'm in. And i'm sure you know what "rut" i'm refering to.
The Democrats have taken over US Congress after 12 years. So how will they affect change after years of critisizing the administration? With GWBush being a Republican how well will he and Democrats work together? We'll just have to see wont we. =)
I think the public transportation campaign of flagging the bus early is a frigging waste of money. Instead of improving their services they are spending money on pointless campaigns. tsk.
Things i would like to see improved in our public transportation:-
a- More leg room please! I dont pay an average of $2 per bus ride just to get leg cramps and backaches just because i have to squeeze myself in the small spaces available between seats.
b- Do they realise how friggin cold the NEL is? Especially in the morning... I understand that Singapore is a hot and humid country but to lower the aircon more then necessary is a waste of money and the fact that the train does not see the light of day does not help matters and that it tends to get a lil depressing if you ride it from Puggol to HarbourFront.
c- As compared to the above, the MRT is somewhat warmer. Especially during peak hours. Then theres the variety of migrane inducing smells... phee-eeewww..
d- Higher train frequencies during peak hours on the EastWest line that goes from the West to the East. Highes bus frequencies on feeder services during actual peak hours and not a few minutes after peak hour has come and gone.
e- Real time bus schedules for the convenience of commuters.
Oh yea speaking of public transportation. Do they ever really clean the interior of the buses and trains? I mean have you really notice the dust and grime you see at some corners of the bus for example and then theres those oily surfaces you can see on windows or glass panes on these vehicles? It makes you think about things like diseases that can be passed thru surface contact... *shudders*
I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain.
I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug.
I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness,
I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time.
I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change.
I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.
