Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Sometimes you tell yourself you gotta have faith in people
no matter how many times they dissapoint you and its been proven that it will happen to you no matter what stage your life is right now. Time and time again i've always been proven wrong. There will always come a day when you'll be dissapointed. There will always come a day when you see yourself standing alone with no one at your side that has your back.

There are times when i ask myself, why do you even bother?

Perhaps i just want to have a positive outlook in life. That i actually mean something to at least someone, even thou sometimes i know i'm lying to myself.

Sometimes i hate myself for having this intuition I have on certain things. Being able to read into someone's voice on the phone, text words, actions/ reactions that i get.

I've been having a Veronica Mars marathon and sometimes i wish i had her life. Compared to mine, hers looks more exciting even tho how tough life throws punches at her. I wanna be that gerl who can throw that punch back. To not care what people think and knowing how bad life get, sometimes things will turn out ok. But then, it is however a television show.

The next stage of my two decades of living, the 2-2 is coming in two days. Somehow i dont have a good feeling about it and lets just say right about now i'm not looking forward to it.

I can be the girl who smiles all the time without a care in the world, but sometimes having to pretend that everything is ok everytime can get a bit tiring.

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11/21/2006 09:17:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.