Monday, February 19, 2007

Randomness on Lunar New Year
Gong Xi Fa Cai, wan shi ru yi! ;)

1- I know one should be ecstatic when this lunar new year = a very long holiday period and considering i only need to be back in the office only on Thursday. However the thing is, i am bored out of my mind. argh.

2- I am currently having withdrawal symptoms. I think its been ages since i last took time out just to take photographs that i want and i need to get my hands on a camera!! sigh.. i need my own camera...

3- I am p.i.s.s.e.d.... i hate it when my green tea keeps disappearing Everytime i put a bottle in the fridge, or when my chocolates goes missing. I hate it when i cant find my things where i put it. I hate it when certain things goes missing in my room. At times like these, it makes me want to move out. But Singapore is a sucky place when you want to live independently when you are not rich and not an expat. blearghhhhhh..

4- I'm thinking of making a list. Things to do before i die. Maybe then i'll have some motivation to do certain things. Doesnt it give one a certain satisfaction everytime you strike off an item from your list? lolx

5- Spent time with the kids at the orphanage on Sunday. I didnt know how much i totally missed them until i was there. Caught up with stuff that has been happening in their lives and mine. Man how much they have grown, and how much things have changed since the last time i was a resident there myself. And i did promise to bring them out during their next home leave, it'll be fun i'm quite certain of it =)

6- I realise that nobody in the house tells me anything. Maybe because i havent been part of the family for so long that i've been quite redundant as the eldest sister. *shrugs*
sigh i dont know anymore. I'm not appreciated at work, neither am i appreciated at home. Nothing i do matters, nor changes the world does it? Can i run away now? i swear no one will take notice. I need to be somewhere i belong, somewhere where i can put all my hardwork and dedication in and not be unappreciated. (i know this sounds damn emo but i cannot help it.. wahaha... i know i know i'm psycho)

7- I hate it when money has become a daily issue. I hate it when i keep having to worry if i have enough money for daily transport or lunch. I hate it that we're poor. I hate it when people who are rich and well to do keeps throwing money like its nothing.

8- I know this entry starts a lot with I, I, I... But i cant help it. I need to vent. Unlike others, my phone does not ring daily and i dont have anyone to hang on the phone with all day. So i type, i vent, i talk to myself with the help of the computer ahaha. Dont even start on MSN, no one talks to me there either. hmpf. I must be one very boring person ey? well someone has got to be the boring one rite? Lolx

9- So as some of you know i've handed in my application to Arts School to pursue my studies in Arts Management and i've gone for the interview and now currently waiting for an answer.

During the said interview, the lady who interviewed me asked this particular question, "if the world was perfect, which area in the industry would you like to work in?" And i told her music, because of my love for it. And she was about to say something, and since i expected what she was about to say told her that i do understand that Singapore has a small industry for it and i told her i understood, but wasn't the question, "if the world was perfect?" LoL

Andd i suppose i did something right, cause i called the admin office earlier last week, and i was told that i got IN!
I'm ecstatic! But i'm still waiting for the official letter tho.
One step closer`to achieving my dreams!
Tho the downside of this is the monetary issue. Financing my education. I'm sure i'll find a way to work it out =)

10- They say time heals all wounds, but i'm still waiting....

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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.